Oh Great...
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shirubi_no_ai
TOMORROW IS VALENTINES DAY!!
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and im not that excited
nothing really "happy" happens to valentines day to me
im usually forgotten.
ah well..atleast i'll be nice and still give out valentines cards to all my friends ^^ the theme this year is..hahahah you people will have to wait til tomorrow :P

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shirubi_no_ai
T_T im so upset.
i cant do anything this weekend
and..my mouth hurts. X.X
i have to eat soft foods all week and i can't do anything active. so that means i cant dance, i can't play the flute (i hope that dosent bring down my grade in concert band)and gahhhh!! i cant do anything!!!! this really sucks. i hate this i hate weekends and i hate...i dunno..im just really angry really really angry..and i gotta keep this stupid tissue type stuff in my mouth so i cant talk either. x.x a word of advice = get your wisdom teeth out in THE SUMMER. x.x well bye

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shirubi_no_ai
IM BACK.
i cant see straight
and yes im on drugs right now
but for a reason. and i had laughing gas..hahaha that was funny. and im tired. v.v but, getting my tooth out was fun. i was ssooo relaxed. ^^ and i didnt feeel a thing.....

well bai bye

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shirubi_no_ai
well, i get my stupid tooth out today x.x
im scared. reallly scared. i can't believe i had to go to school today x.x cause this makes me feel worse

well, wish me luck. x.x

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shirubi_no_ai
wah. im bored.
I WISH THAT STORY IM READING WAS UPDATED.
i want to know what happens.
^^ yes, i actually like reading now.
Only because its good. :D

i wish i could find ep.11 of karekano but i CANT FIND IT ANYWHERE!! and im too impatient to wait for stupid netflix to get here. T_T

well yep thats it bye bye

yay
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shirubi_no_ai
I think I'm gonna write a story. Cause I feel like writing one for some reason. I'm just not sure what the story will be about. *starts thinking* T.T this is harder than I thought x.x

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shirubi_no_ai
ok. i am thinking about deleting my livejournal and my myspace cause they are just a stupid waste of time and they make me depressed. seriously. if people do hate me, they can atleast tell me it to my face..i really hate everyone right now and sorry if i made anyone mad. i feel like everything i say is a mistake and thats why im afraid to talk sometimes cause..im afraid someone is gonna yell at me or tell me to shut up or something. why am i writing all this crap. good night and good bye ...stupid people ..stupid computer..stupid everything. why cant people accept me as i am??? tommorow im not going to say a word to ANYONE. then they'll really know how it feels to be ignored and forgotten. cause i feel that way EVERY SINGLE DAY. WELLL GOOOD BYE I NEVER WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE EVER AGAIN. PEOPLE THESE DAYS ARE RUDE AND UNCARING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES' FEELINGS. all they care about are themselves. v.v

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shirubi_no_ai
today is better. a LOT better. :D
thank goodness. yesterday i was in a bad mood :[

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shirubi_no_ai
today is going bad.
i dont know why.
oh no. i think i know why.
oh no. not good.
T_T i hate the beginning of every month.
x.x o.o

.Today/feelings/thoughts/advice.
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shirubi_no_ai
today.really sucks. im stuck at home all day doing nothing. no fun at all. i can't go over anyone's house because i just can't. here's a reason.
Nicole is never home.
Colleen is probably busy hanging out with her boyfriend
I have no idea where moe lives(i forget)
...and..im out of options there. i can't call alexandria cause she is probably hanging out with her boyfriend too. what's with people having boyfriends all of a sudden. well hopefully they wont end up like me finding out that my ex is worse than i expected. never trust anyone easily. for i made a mistake and left the problem before anything bad happened. im so glad i got out of it. he is a real jerk and i hope i never see him again. and if he reads this i'll be happy. cause i can never be friends with him. once someone does something to break my trust, i can't talk to or see them. so my friend was right. "get to know people first". i did not listen and i was stupid for that and i regret even saying "yes" when my ex asked me out in december. i should have been smart and said no but i wasn't thinking. please listen, some actions have consequences. and those consequences can be horrible.
im so scared to get in a relationship with someone else now b/c of what happened in the last one. im just hoping one day someone will make me believe that they are not like my ex and they meant it. people who lie can go break someone else's heart. but im sure no one i know likes me...unless someone is hiding a secret from the world o.o most of the people who like me have made horrible decisions in the past but have changed. well they haven't changed completely. they'll always remember what they did. im not sure what though. people see me as a ray of light. they look at me and see someone so "pure" whatever that means. it's true that my parents were very strict and disciplinary and that is a good thing. but, since im like that, i know nothing. but knowing nothing might be a good thing because then i wont have to worry about bad things and can focus better things. i....just wish i could find someone who is like me..who hasn't made a horrible horrible decision in their life..but you dont see a lot of people these days. i hate it when people put themselves in a group or "trend". i also hate to see people not even try in school. i think everyone should give a little effort. even if their life is messed up, just dont worry and live life positivly but of course, NO ONE IS GONNA READ THIS STUPID LONG ENTRY. i just keep on getting this image in my head of me just running free without a worry in the world..and i see this other person or figure, but i can't see who or what its like a blurred image. where is my courage? i need one push forward and i would feel like i could do anything but..where am i gonna get that courage? is it hiding somewhere? "spring wind breathe in a breeze" that phrase helps me get through. its sort of my motto type thing. i am sensing that something is missing and everytime i think about it, i want to know what it is that is missing. is it something missing in the image? in my life? i have a feeling that im gonna find out what it is that is missing in the near future which could be very soon. or not. could be this year next year, in 2 years who knows. well.
im finished now. bye.

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